-5 lbs on the scale, +1 Internal TRANSFORMATION
I lost 5 pounds.
On paper, it’s not earth-shattering — but for me, it marked an internal shift that had been years in the making.
See, I’ve been trying (and failing) to lose some unneeded weight for what’s felt like forever. The harder I tried, the more elusive it felt.
What’s finally worked?
More sleep. Less stress.
And... surrender.
It wasn’t about diet or exercise — it was about surrendering a way of being that no longer served me.
Over three years ago, when I launched COSMO Advantage, I went all-in.
Ninety-plus-hour weeks. Eyes open in early morning and late into the night…
A Mind full of vision.
And if if I'm honest, a soul clenched in fear.
In turn… a body full of cortisol. Cortisol is the stress hormone. When it spikes, your body clings to fat—convinced it's in survival mode.
And I was living in survival mode.
What was I so afraid of?
- Failure.
- Letting my family down. My team. Everyone who believed in us.
- That the risks we were taking would bury us.
- That maybe… my faith, experience, and skills weren’t enough to meet the vision God placed before me.
Looking back, I can see it clearly now: I was operating from an orphan mentality — this deep-rooted belief that I had to do it all, figure it all out, carry it all alone.
And in the quiet moments, I’d hear the Lord whisper: “Honey, you’re diminishing yourself.”
Over and over, He spoke those gentle words to me.
I responded like a good farm girl:
Just a little more hustle. A little more sacrifice. Then I’ll rest.
Then… came the crash.
Then a reset.
Now? I’m still learning—and I’m moving forward with a different spirit.
One that metaphorically walks with open hands, not clenched fists.
The risks haven’t changed — but I have.
I’ve reclaimed wisdom. Reconnected my body, soul, and spirit.
I’m remembering that I’m not alone — and never was.
And in a posture of surrender, real transformation is happening — showing up in my health, and in many other ways.
There are opportunities ahead that feel God-ordained — spaces where our leader and coach development services can truly empower a wider net of individuals, even whole organizations, communities, and industries.
I’m anticipating breakthroughs… and I can’t wait to share them.
Leaders — if you’ve ever felt like you had to carry it all alone, I feel you.
There is another way.
We’d be honored to walk alongside you — or support your team — as you discover more effective ways to accomplish your goals. If you’re curious about what that support could look like, βschedule a time hereβ.







